The silence in my mind was amazing, the calm was as far as I could reach. I could summon a thought into my otherwise blank workspace, and it would stay there until I was done with it, never being jostled or shoved by unbidden thoughts.
It was lovely.
My neurotypical friends were jazzed about being high; I felt normalcy for the first time.
Am I the only one who doesn’t like this feeling? I got meds a couple years back, tried them for a couple days, and just hated it. They definitely did what they were supposed to do… I just hated it.
When I first got a prescription, I tried my first pill. Nothing happened. I was starting to get annoyed.
And then I realized the dialog going on inside my head: it was just a calm, noiseless wave. No preemptive anxiety. No static of overlapping thoughts. Just quiet. Absolutely amazing. Perfect 5/7.
I don’t think it’s emotionless. It’s just deliberate. As much as I personally enjoy the sort of vibrance that noise brings, its capacity to distract from the focus required to do a task that lasts more than 30 seconds is undeniable. It doesn’t make me any less creative or thoughtful, it just finally gives me the capacity to choose where the thoughts go.
I saw the perfect comeback for this: “Everybody pees, too, Karen, but if you’re doing it 60 times a day, then you might have a problem.” It goes from normal to pathological when it interferes with your life.
Have you ever been watching tv, but then an ad comes on?
Oh duh, everyone see ads.
But.
Have you ever wondered why that ad came on?
Who produced the ad. Was it targeted at this time and this show for demographic reasons?
Seems normal to get a car insurance ad during the news. That’s broad appeal shit right. Most people in the US need a car to get around, so broad appeal car insurance ads play everywhere.
What about this gambling as that plays next. Why is sports gambling being advertised during the football game? Wasn’t this stuff illegal like less than 20 years ago?
I think there was some court case that said Internet handling is okay, or maybe it was up to the states to decide.
If it’s up to the states to decide is there like just one lobby that could organize and just by volume out-compete anti gambling discussions. But it wouldn’t be that obvious. It would have to be framed like taxes on the gambling is good or some shit. Like, nevermind the billions siphoned off, your little state slush fund will get 20k in taxes lol, peasant.
I read somewhere that state senators are regularly bought for less than $10k. Like some state senator got up during the meeting for WV and just started reading off the publically available donation numbers for people who sided with corporations on legislature and it was like $5k a pop to buy someone’s vote.
Let’s see how many of you can stop yourself from replying to me without mentioning any of the points I brought up. This is a response to someone questioning what it’s like to have ADHD, remember?
The thread’s OP suggests that this is the default, not abnormal? I mean, this is what it sounds like in my head pretty much 24/7 (also songs are pretty much always playing in the background) and I’ve never really thought of myself as anything other than neurotypical.
When your boss is asking you a question does this happen? If not, you’re probably fine.
If it’s interfering with your ability to function – not just at a job, but school, or with friends, or whatever – that’s when it’s more of a disability.
You know how thinking gets exhausting after a while and it’s frustrating because your brain won’t stop even when you’re already tired? People without adhd don’t have this issue because they choose when to have a train of thought and they stop when it gets too hard. We can’t choose.
Sure everyone should do it to some extent. The difference between ADHD and “normal” is if you can focus into one thread if you try. ADHD peeps often don’t have that control, it’s just uncontrollable slide from one thing to the next.
I’m pretty sure everyone does this, no?
There are people with no voice in their head, but like, other than that, isn’t this the default?
One time I took an illicitly-offered adderall.
The silence in my mind was amazing, the calm was as far as I could reach. I could summon a thought into my otherwise blank workspace, and it would stay there until I was done with it, never being jostled or shoved by unbidden thoughts.
It was lovely.
My neurotypical friends were jazzed about being high; I felt normalcy for the first time.
Am I the only one who doesn’t like this feeling? I got meds a couple years back, tried them for a couple days, and just hated it. They definitely did what they were supposed to do… I just hated it.
So I don’t take them
When I first got a prescription, I tried my first pill. Nothing happened. I was starting to get annoyed.
And then I realized the dialog going on inside my head: it was just a calm, noiseless wave. No preemptive anxiety. No static of overlapping thoughts. Just quiet. Absolutely amazing. Perfect 5/7.
Nice to see that someone besides me knows how to properly score stuff
That was me doing coke or speed. Wow, this is quite relaxing
Same. It was honestly amazing, but I also didn’t feel like myself. I’m not sure I want to live out my life feeling like an emotionless zombie.
I don’t think it’s emotionless. It’s just deliberate. As much as I personally enjoy the sort of vibrance that noise brings, its capacity to distract from the focus required to do a task that lasts more than 30 seconds is undeniable. It doesn’t make me any less creative or thoughtful, it just finally gives me the capacity to choose where the thoughts go.
I saw the perfect comeback for this: “Everybody pees, too, Karen, but if you’re doing it 60 times a day, then you might have a problem.” It goes from normal to pathological when it interferes with your life.
Have you ever been watching tv, but then an ad comes on?
Oh duh, everyone see ads.
But.
Have you ever wondered why that ad came on?
Who produced the ad. Was it targeted at this time and this show for demographic reasons?
Seems normal to get a car insurance ad during the news. That’s broad appeal shit right. Most people in the US need a car to get around, so broad appeal car insurance ads play everywhere.
What about this gambling as that plays next. Why is sports gambling being advertised during the football game? Wasn’t this stuff illegal like less than 20 years ago?
I think there was some court case that said Internet handling is okay, or maybe it was up to the states to decide.
If it’s up to the states to decide is there like just one lobby that could organize and just by volume out-compete anti gambling discussions. But it wouldn’t be that obvious. It would have to be framed like taxes on the gambling is good or some shit. Like, nevermind the billions siphoned off, your little state slush fund will get 20k in taxes lol, peasant.
I read somewhere that state senators are regularly bought for less than $10k. Like some state senator got up during the meeting for WV and just started reading off the publically available donation numbers for people who sided with corporations on legislature and it was like $5k a pop to buy someone’s vote.
Let’s see how many of you can stop yourself from replying to me without mentioning any of the points I brought up. This is a response to someone questioning what it’s like to have ADHD, remember?
The thread’s OP suggests that this is the default, not abnormal? I mean, this is what it sounds like in my head pretty much 24/7 (also songs are pretty much always playing in the background) and I’ve never really thought of myself as anything other than neurotypical.
When your boss is asking you a question does this happen? If not, you’re probably fine.
If it’s interfering with your ability to function – not just at a job, but school, or with friends, or whatever – that’s when it’s more of a disability.
Anyone who doesn’t live in their head doesn’t get it.
“Lives in their heads” perfectly describes me. There are times a tornado could be happening but inside I’m somewhere else.
Or the opposite, a neighbour starts mowing their effing lawn and I can’t focus at all.
I cannot fathom how much the neurotypical world misses.
Not this exactly, but I do have chains of thought like this basically all the time.
Everyone also pees, but if you’re doing it 67 times a day it might be a problem worth investigating
You know how thinking gets exhausting after a while and it’s frustrating because your brain won’t stop even when you’re already tired? People without adhd don’t have this issue because they choose when to have a train of thought and they stop when it gets too hard. We can’t choose.
Okay, I do not have that choice, I’m always thinking if I’m awake.
Sure everyone should do it to some extent. The difference between ADHD and “normal” is if you can focus into one thread if you try. ADHD peeps often don’t have that control, it’s just uncontrollable slide from one thing to the next.