I don’t want to reply to people directly because I don’t want them to feel singled out, but I wanted to share a few things. Anyone who wants to respond is welcome 😊
Your drugs give you executive function?!?! Which ones are you taking and have you tired others/other doses so that you know it’s the type/dose that impacts it? The primary benefit I get from lisdexamfetamine 60 mg is my brain is slightly quieter and I have better emotional regulation.
For me not being able to do things is from one of two reasons. Persistent Demand for Autonomy is when my mind/body refuses to let me do something because it takes any demand as a threat. Like a fainting goat if the fainting goat screamed FUCK YOU (internally) instead of fainting. Demands include me thinking “Gee, I should play that video game I bought and have been looking forward to, that would be nice and relaxing.” No, you are going to sit still for a few hours instead.
Inhibition control: the ability to think before acting.
Working memory: the ability to hold and juggle a small amount of information while performing another task.
Cognitive flexibility: the ability to adjust your thinking or approach when situations change, so you can find new ways to solve problems or respond.
I started typing an example of why it can take me like 2 hours to shower on a bad day but that got really long so I will cut to the point: breaking things into smaller tasks and planning ahead requires executive function. I get the idea is that that you should do this when you feel like your executives are functioning, but remembering to add hobbies and including the permutations that come from doing them “in your spare time” make that really, really hard. So, “I want to play video games” becomes “Initiating the playing of the video game take every last bit of function leaving me with no time to play them and feeling extremely stressed out”.
If it’s built into a routine then I can typically manage. When I wasn’t off work showering maybe took a bit longer some times but I knew I did it at a certain time every day and I had a hair washing schedule so I didn’t need to think about that either. The moment that routine is interrupted (i.e I don’t need to be at work at a certain time each day?) each little decision and step becomes overwhelming. Try and push through it? I’ve forgotten to see if there are any towels in the bathroom? Wore the wrong slippers? I am going to fucking crash out about being wet and uncomfortable and not going to be able to do anything for a few hours. Harder to build video games into a routine especially if you don’t have time to play every day.
I don’t want to reply to people directly because I don’t want them to feel singled out, but I wanted to share a few things. Anyone who wants to respond is welcome 😊
Your drugs give you executive function?!?! Which ones are you taking and have you tired others/other doses so that you know it’s the type/dose that impacts it? The primary benefit I get from lisdexamfetamine 60 mg is my brain is slightly quieter and I have better emotional regulation.
For me not being able to do things is from one of two reasons. Persistent Demand for Autonomy is when my mind/body refuses to let me do something because it takes any demand as a threat. Like a fainting goat if the fainting goat screamed FUCK YOU (internally) instead of fainting. Demands include me thinking “Gee, I should play that video game I bought and have been looking forward to, that would be nice and relaxing.” No, you are going to sit still for a few hours instead.
When it’s executive disfunction I literally cannot figure out how to do it and it becomes overwhelming. Executive function consists of three parts (taken from https://cpa.ca/psychology-works-fact-sheet-executive-functioning/ )
I started typing an example of why it can take me like 2 hours to shower on a bad day but that got really long so I will cut to the point: breaking things into smaller tasks and planning ahead requires executive function. I get the idea is that that you should do this when you feel like your executives are functioning, but remembering to add hobbies and including the permutations that come from doing them “in your spare time” make that really, really hard. So, “I want to play video games” becomes “Initiating the playing of the video game take every last bit of function leaving me with no time to play them and feeling extremely stressed out”.
If it’s built into a routine then I can typically manage. When I wasn’t off work showering maybe took a bit longer some times but I knew I did it at a certain time every day and I had a hair washing schedule so I didn’t need to think about that either. The moment that routine is interrupted (i.e I don’t need to be at work at a certain time each day?) each little decision and step becomes overwhelming. Try and push through it? I’ve forgotten to see if there are any towels in the bathroom? Wore the wrong slippers? I am going to fucking crash out about being wet and uncomfortable and not going to be able to do anything for a few hours. Harder to build video games into a routine especially if you don’t have time to play every day.
Sorry, I don’t have anything valuable to add/respond except: wtf, how did you get in my head?