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Yeah it’s a felony

Ah yes, the recipe for burn out

LMAO I “found out” when I was sobbing at the bench press about how I couldn’t even exercise properly because I had gotten up to do dishes mid set. I saw some memes about ADHD brains and I was like, oh maybe that’s what’s wrong with me…

Welcome, friend

I was so convinced I ruined my hearing with rock and roll music but no, my brain just don’t work good.

I fluctuate between:

• “I’ve been doing this for a long time”
• “I’m very good at googling”
• “Autism”

It’s me. I’m disorder.

The meds help for sure but they haven’t quite made me a human being yet.

I keep telling myself my burnout (which lead to finding out I’m AuDHD) is because of menopause which I don’t think has actually started yet…so absolutely not looking forward to it actually happening.

I’m going to fill the tub with e gel and just live in it.

Solidarity comrade - the two wolves inside us are fighting each other 😅

Yes, hence the title.

I wanted to sit and sort some beads but I kept getting distracted.

I’ve heard people saying cocaine worked well for them, even though you mention it wasn’t great for you. I unknowingly self medicated with waaaay too much caffeine and ephedrine in university.

I’m way too scared of the toxic drug supply to try street drugs nowadays. I guess the war on drugs is winning against me lol? If I was going to try street drugs now I’d want to have access to drug testing kits.

Replying to my own comment to add that I am having a very AuDHD morning:

• Got up, took meds, make coffee
• Go to get some breakfast, I want edamame - in shell. None upstairs.
• Okay, check the chest freezer in the basement. Get lost looking in the freezer because there is a lot of interesting stuff in there. Get cold, remember what you are looking for, no dice.
• Go back upstairs thinking you’ll just have a bowl of veggie mix.
• No veggie mix upstairs. There were three bags downstairs. Stand paralyzed. Do I want to go back downstairs? Do I want to eat breakfast?
• Decide to combine the remnants of spicy fries and spicy tots in the air fryer.
• Sit on the couch and look at memes, your regular chats, etc. Get into some discussions. Forget about air fryer.
• Air fryer dings, go get food. It’s not right. Eat it anyways.
• Look at more memes. You haven’t scratched that itch for edamame, you can’t move on.
• Eat some kaju katli because that’s what you needed, more junk food.
• Chat some more, fall down some rabbit holes - oh look my coffee is cold
• Finish cold coffee, realize you could share this journey you’ve been on for the lols and also realize you’ve been trying to get to the garden for two hours and it’s already 29 C outside.
• Still haven’t had the satisfaction of some tasty, salty, vegetable edamame goodness and can’t.make.self.go.
• Realize all my socks are downstairs…game over.

One of us! One of us!

Hell yeah comrade!

Evernote is a deep hole where notes go to die.

But I also keep lists of interesting historical stuff that I can quickly access via my phone so I’ve got that going for me.