This isn’t an attack as I don’t interpret your comment as being malicious, this is just an observation from an outside observer of this interaction.

You may be right about lonely people and just sharing info you have noted from your own experiences with them in your life but that is a brutal take down of @[email protected] when they are sharing a major problem in their life.

Your comment may hold true for them but we don’t know that so it feels more like an accusation and victim blaming than being helpful.

Hey @[email protected], I’ve been there. It can be rough.

If you don’t have someone to talk to about it have you tried a therapist or other mental health professionals? I find this is one of the most important first steps of any life issue being faced, just talk about it with someone who knows a thing or two about the topic, make it a regular and consistent conversation.

I don’t know your situation but if you need it, this helped me;

Being social and maintaining friendships is a skill that can be worked on, no one can run a marathon on their first attempt, it takes training.

Starting small and working your way up. Saying hello to a stranger in the street or making small talk with a check out clerk at the grocery store is a good place to start. If you struggle with small talk then practice that first and work up from there. If you struggle with social anxiety then breaking through can be hard, some people struggle more than others. Training these skills sets do produce positive results.

*Be kind, honest and fair with all people you interact with. This isn’t a mask to put on, the ideal to strive for is to be those things as a person.

*Talk to people about what they are interested in or doing (learn about them) instead of focusing on talking about yourself.

*Respect others boundaries.

*Regularly check in with those in your social circle/community, don’t wait for them to check in on you.

*Get outside. Don’t just spend time at school/work & home. Find a third place where you can blend in but also be a regular. Cafe, bar, pool hall, library, gym, reading in the park, walk/hike in an area you like… whatever aligns with your interests and feel you could eventually become comfortable existing in that space but it is also a place where you are not required to be social. Eventually becoming comfortable with being in that space lowers anxiety of being there and you start to recognize the regulars and they start to recognize you. That makes socializing easier since you are now comfortable in the space and familiar to others who are regulars as well.

You get back what you give out. Do not expect to connect with everyone and not everyone will reciprocate your attention or interest but if you do it enough you will find those who do. Keep at it and you will find more and more.

Good luck and god speed!

Agreed on Kill Bill… a lot of people say their favorite of his are other movies but I think the Tarantino fans agree about Kill Bill. It is campy and melodramatic but epic.

It is such an interesting movie I think because it skates a unique line between ridiculous Hollywood summer blockbuster spectacle and a traditional story of revenge. The world he creates is saccharine/artificial but the story is something so simple and basic but we connect with on primal level. Going from a tragedy to overcoming incredible odds through skill she gets everything she wants in the end.

The emotions are so basic almost any viewer can connect with them. Binding those two elements together feels disjointed visually but also natural internally. There is magic in film when a director can do that in an elegant and graceful way. On top of all that the visual style, camerawork, sets, music, film grain, pacing, special effects, sound effects, lighting, casting are all excellent.

My only issue with the movie is how at the end during Bill’s Superman speech, he says that Superman is the only true superhero. He is Superman first and Clark Kent second, whereas other heroes are normal people with superhero alter-egos. He then specifically calls out Bruce Wayne/Batman. Not true, Batman thinks of himself as Batman, Bruce Wayne is the fake persona. It is what make Batman and Superman such great frenemies, they are two sides of the same coin, one of hope and one despair but still deciding to be good. They both have legacies their parents put on them that they are responsible for living up to without their parent’s guidance.

It’s a small thing but it bugs me every time.

Hey, I’ll do my best, here is my take;

I’d like to talk to you, But the TV is too loud— It’s pretending to be your head, Its speaker is so much like your mouth.

Someone feeling frustration over wanting to talk about things but the person can’t hear them because they only listen to and regurgitate what the TV (main stream media or government controlled media) wants them to say.

My country has risen from its knees In all its negative growth. I negatively agree with everything— Here’s my answer to your non-question:

We were getting back up after the fall of the USSR when everything fell apart and cratered. I don’t agree with what is going on, even though you didn’t ask I am going to tell you how I feel about all this anyway.

Where have you been for eight years, Fucking inhuman beings?! I want to watch the ballet— Let the swans dance!

This has been going on for 8 years now and you have turned a blind eye to it. I want to watch Swan Lake again at the ballet (referencing Russia’s primary artistic exports historically is ballet, of which Swan Lake is one of the most popular/wellknown)

Let Grandpa tremble in fear for his “Lake.” Get the nightingales off the screen— Let the swans dance!

Not entirely sure what this is referring to, my best guess is juxtaposing story elements of Swan Lake to current political happenings in Russia, ie comparing Putin to a grandpa and lake may be ambiguous as a reference to Swan Lake and Putin’s lakeside palace.

When it’s all over, you’ll be silent And pretend you had nothing to do with it. Your face is more sour than a Crimean cherry plum: You’re clearly slightly depressed about something.

When we, or future generations, fix this you are just going to pretend you had nothing to do with it, you’re a liar, like the lies they tell us about why we have the right to invade Crimea in Ukraine to justify our war with an innocent country. You know it is wrong but you keep lying to yourself about why.

I’d like to talk to you, But the TV is too loud— It’s pretending to be your head, Its speaker is so much like your mouth.

Repeat of the first verse; Someone feeling frustration over wanting to talk about things but the person can’t hear them because they only listen to and regurgitate what the TV (main stream media or government controlled media) wants them to say.

Where have you been for eight years, Fucking monsters?! I want to watch a ballet— Let the swans dance!

Repeat of the second verse but changing “Fucking inhuman monsters” to “fucking monsters”

Let Grandpa tremble for his “Lake.”

Repeat of the first line in the fourth verse but changing fear to tremble, again most likely referencing Putin and him willing to sacrifice the people of Russia in order to keep his extreme wealth and lake side palace.

Get off the screen, Solovyov— Let the swans dance!

Solovyov is a famous TV presenter in Russia, which I believe the speaker believes, or is inferring, is a government shill or otherwise bought off to only report what Putin wants him to report. So they are demanding Solovyov be removed from TV and to give the people back their freedom (swans dancing)

Hope that helped if you were being sincere about needing assistence to understand it. I have ADHD myself and have several friends with both ADHD and learning disabilities (they are co-morbidities of ADHD) so I can understand the frustration.

Usually I am just laying there for several hours in the dark before I fall asleep.

I am trying to get away from that up all night doing nothing but cheap dopamine addictions.

Those teary eyes… I feel attacked.

Honestly though, I’ve been working on it.

I try to go to bed between 9:30-10:30. I’m pretty successful at that most of the time but the problem is I am so used to getting only a few hours of sleep I wake up around 3-5am and then can’t get back to sleep until 6 or 7am, which is too late. I either have to stay up and be exhausted for the day or roll the dice on a nap before the alarm clock goes off.

Lion’s Mane supplement or just straight up Lion’s Mane mushrooms?

How did they end up helping? I hadn’t heard of this use of them before.

I’d like to know a bit more if you don’t mind. I’m sure some others in this post may want to know as well due to the topic.

I’m a bit of an amateur mycologist and grow Lion’s Mane from time to time.

Congrats btw! Don’t discount your own effort by attributing your ass getting saved by Lion’s Mane. You put in work too I’m sure. Hope you also recognize that.

Yeah, it makes sense in retrospect that emotion would be considered a sense. I have never met, still to this day, anyone else who has emotion>color but I have met other synesthetes.

I cried tears of joy once I discovered some other people writing about their experience with emotion>color for the first time. Emotion being the trigger is somewhat rare in synesthesia but color as the response is the most common of responses. My understanding and exposure to synesthesia was that it worked in conjunction with the traditional 5 senses of touch, taste, sound, sight and sound smell but that is not the case. There are spacial, emotional, personality, temperature and several others beyond that that are also considered to be a part of synesthesia now.

It is hard to classify because the responses are subjective to the individual. My color to emotion pairings are unique to me as well as how it presents in my vision though some of the color pairings are somewhat universal at a basic level.

Thanks for the sympathy but I see it as a gift. Early life sucked as it was very isolating. With my pattern recognition autistic brain that tracked body movements and emotions of others to try and mask better it made it very easy to figure out when adults or others were lying to me or just acting out of character. I had a HUD that would discolor them. I am fantastic at poker but never play with friends or family, while I can’t see their cards I know a bluff without much effort and can run the numbers in my head to make a pretty accurate guess of the probability of their hand, especially with Texas Hold’m.

The benefit, now that I don’t mask any of this as an adult is immense. I gravitate towards honest and open people. I make friends easily as I can cut through the BS but the majority of my friends I’ve had for several decades. I am very lucky to have such deep and long lasting friendships. Narcissists are a problem for me though, I take others at face value and they tend to mask their intentions well, like the antithesis of me. It is kinda weird. I have to be morally balanced in my daily life; kind, honest and fair or else my worldview gets colored in a depressing/angry/resentful or other negative tint. I can get overwhelmed during extremely distressing events and depending on how long those events last for, like a parent in decline or dying, then I can be overwhelmed by it for months or years. It’s better now that I have a more clear understanding and various coping mechanisms.

It all takes balance, like with anyone, I just feel the highs and lows more acutely because so much of my attention has to be focused on it. Once I was able to accept it, figured out how it functioned, worked on coping mechanism and sought therapy for emotional regulation then life became pretty great. Happiest I’ve ever been. Wouldn’t give any of it up for any price but it was a tough road.

It’s genetic too, part of what drove me to figure it all out and use it to my advantage was when I decided to have kids. If they got it then I needed to be able to not alienate them like I was but to help guide them in whatever way it presented in them so they could skip past the several decades I went through to get to the good parts.

Some people still think it is weird and treat me as such but that’s ok, can’t be friends with everyone.

Apologies for the info dump, it’s been one of those morning where I am avoiding doing the things I should be doing today but I figured someone might want to hear more about it in case they have similar sensory stuff going on or know someone who does. It was a comment like this in a random thread on a random forum from a random person where I discovered Emotion>Color synesthesia was a thing. Figured I’d try to pay it forward on here in case someone needs it.

*fixed a word

Yeah, I think it is common in some regards.

The current prevailing theory on how synesthesia happens in the human brain says that everyone is born with these connections but in early development the synaptic connections are sheared or closed off. Like how your brain will close off bad memories or certain emotions for trauma victims. It is believed to be a similar mechanism. The connection is still there but it is shut down and inaccessible. When people take hallucinogens and see colors or geometric shapes in their vision that is the drug reopening those closed synaptic connections temporarily.

The degree in which synaptic shearing happens or which synaptic connections get sheared are different for every person. So there could be, like, a bell curve, where some people have more connections throughout their life than others but the majority tend to group towards the middle of the curve. For mirror touch, and several other types of synesthesia, it tends to be a bit of a spectrum of those who don’t experience it to those who experience it acutely. Even then there are those who may experience it internally, like intellectually know there is a sensation and those who have some sort of physical reaction. Synesthesia presents itself in wildly different ways among those with the condition. There are many triggers and many different kinds of responses. If you have one type you are 50% likely to have 2 or 3 different types of synesthesia.

There are two main tranches that people with synesthesia fall into in regards to the affects of synesthesia; people either think everyone has the same thing and so they don’t talk about it or, once they do talk about it, discover not everyone experiences the same thing they do, or not to the degree in which they do. If the synesthetic response is strong, hard to ignore and not something people are used to hearing about then the synesthete (a person with synesthesia) tends to not talk about their condition due to fear of being ostracized or sent to a psychiatrist and etc.

I have Emotion>Color Synesthesia, along with several other types (including mirror touch). So my emotions present as colors projected into my vision. When talking about it as a kid I was sent to a psychiatrist as my parents thought I was making it up or crazy. I was put on anti-depressants which, surprise surprise, dulled my emotions and made the emotional>color synesthesia less pronounced but still there. Emotion wasn’t considered as a “sense” in the traditional meaning so it took a long time for me to figure out that it was synesthesia and how mine worked. Only in the later years of the 2000s did synesthesia start to come back into scientific research circles and with the internet it made it possible for edge cases, like myself, to start making contact with each other.

If you want to learn more about it then the book from 2009 called “Wednesday is Indigo Blue” is a great starting point and kinda spearheaded synesthesia coming back into public discourses. It is not a long book, gives a good overview of the condition and its many variations but is also approachable and not too heady.

Piercing, scars or any other noticeable thing like that in someone else gives me a sensation on the same spot on my body if I see/recognize/notice it. If someone gets punched, kicked or injured in a movie or such I also can get a similar sensation but to a lower degree if I frame it in my mind that it is fake, if someone visibly breaks a bone or gets injured in a sports game then that has a much more distinct, acute and entirely unpleasant sensation. I don’t watch much sports to keep that from happening.

I believe it is a type of synesthesia called Mirror Touch.

If the land isn’t otherwise arable, such as extreme desert, then there most likely isn’t any population centers nearby. Minimizing environmental impact would have to factor in the transportation of resources to the facility and grown food out of the facility to consumers too.

I think verticals farms are going to be an important component for future food production, especially with climate change. You are right though, the entire process needs to be redesigned holistically before it is a viable option compared to traditional farming.

That isn’t to say we shouldn’t be building these facilities now though; I think the more we build now the faster we will solve these problems by putting practical research into the needed technology.

Fixed, thanks again!

Oh, thanks so much for the heads up. I didn’t know that!

Yeah, when I went through school they didn’t teach it this why but that is what I taught myself, much more simple math (+ & - with no * or \) in the same amount of steps.

Is that what they call Common Core? I’ve heard the term but didn’t know how it changed the method of teaching math.

Leave it to my AuDHD brain to figure out a less strenuous path to the same endpoint…

I wonder if this is an anxiety source for ASD/ADHD/AuDHD people. Having to constantly re-map lessons taught to fit my neurodivergent brain that it now feels like the entire neurotypical world is gaslighting neurodivergents.

Thank You!!

It’s not lazy to ask someone who seems to know something about the topic within a discussion thread about said topic. You know more than I do on this.

I understand how you may not want to take the time to answer someone’s question but also you could have replied with the link you eventually did instead of saying “Seriously?” Within the context of calling others lazy you could also qualify under the same term since you took the time to respond but not with the answer.

With search being what it is nowadays I wouldn’t know if I am getting a good result to find out the answer since it is of a technical and specific nature I may or may not even know if I am familiar with to begin with. It could take me much longer to figure it out, or I will give up and not be interested in finding out more about a field you seem to have an interest and knowledge about and I am demonstrating I want to know more about.

I think it is fair to ask for more information from someone who shows more expertise in the topic before searching.

Thanks!

Agreed!

I don’t know what this is but it is a topic I am somewhat familiar with and it is somehow significant enough to be a headline.

Curious minds would like to know more.