Thanks for taking the time to share your experience. I appreciate it and your perspective. Logically I can understand and accept what you’re saying, but emotionally I’m not so lucky.

I’ve struggled with my mental health for most of my life anyway, but I lost my wife, 2 cats, FIL and everything I owned in a house fire that I, for whatever reason, walked away from last April. I’ve spent the last year trying to understand it, and the conclusion I’ve come to is death. No matter the highs or the lows, the recognition of the present or the expectation of better days, death seems to hold the most weight. I’m tired, you know? Not like a long day tired, but like my soul, if it exists, is tired.

I’m in therapy and have been for years, and I know the tricks pretty well. I have a cat and a few friends that for better or for worse guilt me into staying, but they don’t know this pain thankfully. We’re all going to die one day anyway so what’s it matter if I, 1 meaningless person out of 8 billion, goes early? That’s where I weigh the pros and cons.

I weigh the pros and cons of committing suicide every single day.

Yeah I wasn’t joking.

My brain started working.

When you aren’t going to be accepted here either so…

That’s by design.

Then go back to Reddit.

A misanthrope that cares about “innocent” people? Seems fishy.

None of us are innocent.

Oh you didn’t need to tell us you care more about your stuff then anyone else’s, bud.

The earth will be ok. One day we’ll be gone and she’ll be just fine.

They’re a bit expensive up front, but I’m really enjoying my Framework.

Lol Nvidia has quiet the reputation in the Linux world. Keep at it though. We all make mistakes.

In a country known for guns, poor mental health care and prideful morons you’d figure this fuck face would be dead already. No one willing to take one for the team, eh? Me either.

Beep bop bope Russian bot.

Shoo go back to being poorly photographed in forest settings.

Weird I thought Trump liked gold.

Take out tons of credit cards, loans etc and max them out with no intention of paying any of it back. Burn it to the ground.