Both the reasons you listed may be part of it. I will try to approach it from your perspective which can help me to force myself. I will be able to do it if I really dedicate time and attention to it.

Thanks, if I somehow stumble on somebody who mentions even one thing I can relate to, I’ll be sure to listen and absorb what was said.

What do you think of combining this approach with simple train of thought and/or sporadic notes? Funnily enough I didn’t even think of writing on a schedule or in a structured way until you just mentioned it.

Yes I was quite afraid, or maybe just somewhat prepared, that a healthy solution is not possible.

I guess I should note that a minimization of pain is better than nothing. So I’ll take any ideas that are healthy-adjacent at least.

Thanks, I’ll work towards opening up with myself and trying something

I really appreciate this idea. I’ve always thought I was no good at traditional “art” but perhaps I need to broaden my idea of what will constitute art and what can be made and kept in plain sight.

One thing I want to try is journaling, to start.

Edit: has anyone ever tried to journal but was instinctively unable to write unrestricted? I think I just need to push through this feeling.