This just happened and I’m not certain if this was a fair dismissal of a YouTube ad manifesting itself as ethanol or if my neurospicy just fired a nuke at Israel…
Liqueur girls slinging free jager shots at the bar: “want a shot?”
Me: ….no. I’m here to escape the capitalism. Go away.
Bartender: -glares- wut?
Liqueur girls: are you serious?
Me: I know what this is. You are working girls, just not the kind akron appreciates. I enjoy the product, but not the promotion. Please go away.
Bartender: -wide eyed-
Lady bystander: -dies laughing-
Liqueur whores: -furious, stomp off-
DO NOT ADVERTISE TO THE DRUNKEN NEURODIVERGENT
I think I’m at a point where I need a therapist again. This was not okay. I feel like the concerta makes me mean. I’m the Rick Sanchez of my friend group. I don’t think I’m intelligent or capable. I’m just surrounded by idiots frequently so it just seems that way by comparison. But that’s not humble or respectful, it’s the opposite. And it’s mean.
I got on the concerta after vyvance was perfect but I acclimated to it inside a week and it had literally zero effect after that. I thought that I going from perfection to starting over inside a week meant this was going to be an abusable drug and I should try something else but this generic concerta makes me feel just mean all the fucking time.
I hurt those girls because I have a hang up on advertisements and knew exactly where to point a sharp stick without even stopping to think what that meant.
I’m the problem
The fact that you can point all of this out is good. If you were still doubling down and refusing to admit you made a mistake, this would snowball.
I stopped taking a generic med a while back because it made me the same way. I was short with people and I felt angry, but with no identifiable reason. That was the main reason I went back to being unmedicated. It never made me snap at someone, but I knew if I stuck with that medication, it probably would’ve eventually lead to that. It’s like you’re waiting for someone to unload that energy at and there are a lot of things to trigger that response in the world today.