I wouldn’t say I used to be far-right but at high school, I have some right-wing opinion which is mostly from YouTubers I used to watch as well as I have internalise my homophobia and ableism because I get made fun of being queer and autistic that I felt like something was wrong with me.
It was around lockdown that I graduated from high school. It made me realise of the times I tried to get validation from my classmates which I never really got. Also, Black Lives Matter was trending on TikTok which made me realise how very shallow right-wing space is with them constantly moving the goalpost and framing certain scenario a certain way to fit to their agenda.
I still hate myself for it and despite I have changed, I still beat myself over it and wish I can cut myself. Better late than never but I wish I wasn’t that desperate for validation that I think even the slight gay representation is too “on the nose”.
Don’t beat yourself up about your opinions as a high schooler, it’s an age where you are very vulnerable to outside inputs, very attached to the opinions of your family (don’t know if that’s your case at all), and barely have any life experience that can disprove a lot of these ideas in practice. You should feel proud that you managed to realize these issues with your self and fix them instead of letting them fester like so many people do.
One might very well argue that someone who came to a realization and mended their way has an even better understanding and appreciation for the new value than someone who didn’t question their upbringing, even if they always had noble values.
Don’t beat yourself over it. The fact that you came to that realisation, makes you human.
You aspire to be a better person, and that’s what is important. Don’t let wrong choices direct you in life! We all make ‘em.
I wouldn’t say I used to be far-right but at high school, I have some right-wing opinion which is mostly from YouTubers I used to watch as well as I have internalise my homophobia and ableism because I get made fun of being queer and autistic that I felt like something was wrong with me.
It was around lockdown that I graduated from high school. It made me realise of the times I tried to get validation from my classmates which I never really got. Also, Black Lives Matter was trending on TikTok which made me realise how very shallow right-wing space is with them constantly moving the goalpost and framing certain scenario a certain way to fit to their agenda.
I still hate myself for it and despite I have changed, I still beat myself over it and wish I can cut myself. Better late than never but I wish I wasn’t that desperate for validation that I think even the slight gay representation is too “on the nose”.
Don’t beat yourself up about your opinions as a high schooler, it’s an age where you are very vulnerable to outside inputs, very attached to the opinions of your family (don’t know if that’s your case at all), and barely have any life experience that can disprove a lot of these ideas in practice. You should feel proud that you managed to realize these issues with your self and fix them instead of letting them fester like so many people do.
One might very well argue that someone who came to a realization and mended their way has an even better understanding and appreciation for the new value than someone who didn’t question their upbringing, even if they always had noble values.
Don’t beat yourself over it. The fact that you came to that realisation, makes you human. You aspire to be a better person, and that’s what is important. Don’t let wrong choices direct you in life! We all make ‘em.