I missed a really important appointment earlier and I even kind of want to still be in a bad mood about it because I’m so irritated with myself but now I’m too distracted by the rest of the shit going on in my life to spend any energy staying grumpy
I missed a really important appointment earlier and I even kind of want to still be in a bad mood about it because I’m so irritated with myself but now I’m too distracted by the rest of the shit going on in my life to spend any energy staying grumpy
I used to catch myself doing this a lot. Something will happen and I’ll tell myself, literally make the decision, “I’m going to be mad about this all day.”
I’ll purposefully be frustrated in everything I do and be mad at myself for it.
Until something happens that actually requires my full, un-frustrated attention, and if it takes long enough I’ll “forget” that I was “supposed” to be mad?
Sometimes I’ll even try to get mad again.
Once I recognized the behavior it was easier to stop it, but I do still catch myself sometimes reminding myself that “you’re mad right now, stop laughing 😠”
my mom used to use humor to try to snap me out of bad moods as a kid and I would laugh but still be angry, and that would make me even angrier. she was just trying to help :(